Halloween+your period+skinny blonde chicks don’t mix.
How dare I get my period on Halloween? How dare one of my co-workers visiting from NY bring me an infamous ‘black and white cookie’? How dare I get the sugar cravings at 3pm, and eat everything in the office that wasn’t nailed down? How dare that skinny blonde chick standing behind me in my sculpting class tonight show up with full hair and make up, not break a sweat, and still have lip gloss on at the end? Ugh.
Needless to say, it’s been a bad day. Bad is an understatement. Terrible. I was so proud of myself yesterday…went to my class…ate well througout the day…even found that I wasn’t nearly as hungry as normal. I guess that was just the calm before the storm. I have been nothing but a ravenous monster today, shoveling in the junk like I was going to be stranded on a desert island for the next month. Why oh why oh why must there be a “time of the month?” And to top it off, why does the picture perfect blonde chick have to make me feel a billion times worse about myself. Perhaps if I wasn’t full force ragging it today, she wouldn’t have affected me as much, but she did. During class, we were lying on our mats, doing a stretch. I look over at her and cringe as I see her PERFECT little flat stomach…then for whatever reason (self torture, I suppose) look down at myself. Mt. Stomach I should call it. It feels like no matter how hard I try, I will never EVER come close to even looking as remotely good as she does. Maybe if I got my jaw wired shut…
I just hate feeling like this. And there’s absolutely nothing I can do about it. Nothing. When you’re up, you’re way up…and when you’re down…you fall hard. And it seems nearly impossible to get yourself back up again. With each bite of cavity inducing chocolate that passed through my mouth, I felt like a failure.
Sorry folks, it’s been a bad one. I’m off to bed.
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Things will feel better soon you’ll see.
Damn hormones.
Take care
Lori
I am so sorry you had such a hard day! Have you ever tried to write a poem when feeling like the world is not treating you well? I find writing poetry really helps when I am at a low. Also, I wish I could always say I do this, but when down, it really helps to go out and do something for someone else - that feels great!
You take care and I hope your Thursday is so much better.
Nancy
Get a good night sleep, in the morning start fresh. What is that saying? When the going gets tough….the tough get going? We are all in this together and we will get through this!
I hate TOM. I crave everything bad during mine. You’ll get through. I hope your day goes better tomorrow. Good luck!!! SMile it helps!
its definitely your hormones, in a couple days you’ll look back at this post and laugh. jealously is probably the worst characteristic a person could have, just think about all the good things in life that you do have and try not to compare yourself to other people, because for all you know, your life may be actually 10 times better than theirs
It happens to us all! The only thing you can do is get right back on track! Just think of all the positive things that you have accomplished so far!
Have a good one!
Days like that are never fun. Those are the days you need to think about all the progress you made. We talked about this in weight watchers last night. Think about if you had to pick up all the weight you have lost so far and carring around with you all day. I know I couldn’t do that.
I still have days with I want to eat over my point ranage or I am craving sugar. Or you have the perfect size 5 women in your exercise class and you think I can never look like that. I know when I get to my goal weight of 125 I still will not have a perfect flat stomach, but I will be so much healther than I am now.
Friend! Don’t beat your self up. I have those days as well. It’s so hard when those skinny bitches are there next to you. My trick is to find something about my self that is clearly superior…like…my boobs, or umm..brain.
Today will be better!
I’m with you… pooey on skinny blonde chicks whose hair never moves, don’t sweat, and still have on their makeup at the end of exercise class. Life just is not FAIR!
However, if you keep up the good work and get your head on straight, this time next year you could be the “skinny” chick that some other poor chubby person is making themselves sick over. Don’t let her get you down. Focus on you…I know it’s hard when the entire world seems to be one anorexic skinny blonde after another, but you can and will do this!
lol that was so funny how you started this blog. Hopefully things will get better! And continue to do what you can for you the skinny blonde chicks will be out of season soon! Have a great one!