Starting Monday…a journey to the finish…

Well, it’s been a month already.  Can you believe February starts on Friday?  Yeah, neither can I.   What have I done this month…to work towards my goals of my new “revolution.”

Not much.

Ok, I guess a little.

I have sucessfully reached  day 29 of not smoking.  And believe me, it hasn’t been easy.  Not in the least.  I had my period last week..my first one without smoking (in 10 years)…to say I was a little over the edge…well, that’s an understatement.  My co-workers were afraid to walk past my desk with fear of fire randomly flying out of my mouth, and setting them ablaze.

Can’t say that I blamed them.

But, I made it through.

As for the weight loss..well, it hasn’t happened so far.  As one of you fine folks so graciously suggested, I focused on the quitting smoking, and not so much the eating aspect of things.  (Err…actually I focused on food more than ever…especially things like cake, cookies…anything with that sweet legal street drug known as sugar…)

But, what’s done is done.  I’ve started focusing on my eating again, and so far, things have been good.  All the while, the exercise has been there.  Regardless of what else is going on  in my life, I still manage to go to the gym.

Weird, isn’t it?

I’ve always been a morning exerciser..getting to the gym at 6:30am and squeezing in as much as I could before I had to race home, get showered and dressed, and get my happy ass to hell…ahem…work I mean.  I hate doing anything after work..especially in the drudgery of Chicago winters.  I’m a freakin bear…I just want to hibernate.

I made a discovery today.  A rather important one.  Listen carefully.

I couldn’t get out of bed this morning, so I skipped the gym.  I got more sleep, and I felt great throughout the day.  I ended up working out after work…and TA DA..it was great.  I wasn’t rushed.  I didn’t have to dread rushing home and getting ready for work.  I could go at my own pace and enjoy it…not make it such a chore.

Crazy, ain’t it?

Oh, and here’s the icing on the cake….I came home with ass-loads of energy.  I cleaned the kitchen…did dishes…mopped the kitchen and dining room floors…paid bills, and after this, I’ll be cleaning out my closet.

Oh, and one more thing…

I WASN’T SITTING ON THE COUCH WATCHING TV, FEELING TEMPTED TO SNACK.  IT’S A FREAKIN’ MIRACLE I TELL YOU!!

Kelly, you amaze yourself sometimes.

Ok, one more revelation for the day, because this one has been a long time coming, and I need to put it into writing before I forget.

“A lifestyle change is not something you do with that attitude of ‘if it’s convenient.’  A lifestyle change is something that you take on full force, and let the details fall around that.” –Me.
Or something to that effect.

I realized this tonight, at the gym.  Yeah, I could squeeze in some morning (and half-assed) workouts, but why?  I need to spend the time acutally working towards my goal, and giving it my all.  I’ve been feeling very un-motivated as of late.   I’ve been reading everybody’s blogs, and seeing all of this success, and feeling worse about myself.

And then it dawned on me.  Focus.  Apply yourself.  Give it your all.

Duh.

I think we make this harder than it actually is people.

To a better February..