Having one of “those” moments.
There’s a girl in my office. We’re about the same age. (Ok, she’s actually 4 years older, but who’s counting?) We’re both the young, single gals in the ofc. I’ve been here about a year longer. I know the job one year’s worth more. I know the people one year’s worth more. She has a good personality. I have a better personality. (If she had a better personality, I’d have no problem admitting to it. She tends to come off a bit snotty.) On the phone, we probably both come off equally as cute. (I’m sure I’m funnier.) We have this engineer in town for the week, doing some training. I finally got to meet him in person (yesterday) after talking on the phone for months. I always try to find the disappointment in these engineers faces when, after months of talking to me on the phone, they see me in person, and find out that I’m fat. Most do a REALLY good job of hiding it. And for a select few, it doesn’t seem to phase them. But, I notice.
So, I come back from lunch today, and see this engineer over by “her” desk. I don’t care. Or at least I shouldn’t, but I do. I’m not trying to make a love connection by any means. I guess I’m just tired of being the cool one, the funny one…but when it comes right down to it…the fat one. “Sure…she’d be perfect…if she’d only lose some weight.” That’s not a direct quote, but you all understand exactly where I’m coming from. I just want to be the one who’s desired in person…not just out of people’s line of vision. I want to be flirted with…I want to know what it’s like to “fight off the guys.” I just want one person…one guy whom I would find attractive back…just to look at me and desire me. Needless to say, it pissed me off when I saw this guy over there. The skinny girl wins again.
Sorry for the Debbie downer post…I think I’m pms’ing.
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I know totally what you mean….
Are you kidding me? If your pictures are any clue - you look great!! I mean, I totally get what you are saying, because I obviously feel that way or I wouldn’t be here, but you are doing soo good. Do not let something like this define your self worth! Keep going and someday very soon, you will be the cute, funny, smart AND MOST ATTRACTIVE one!
if skinny is his definition of beauty, she hasn’t won much, and you haven’t lost ANYTHING.
have a great weekend.
Girl, you are beautiful… I looked at your pictures..
Listen, I weighed 185lbs when my husband and I got married, I’m at 263lbs now.. The most I’ve ever weighed.. Although I don’t feel good about myself, my husband sees his beautiful wife he loves… He doesn’t see the fat… He loves me for me…
You will find that too.. Everyone deserves to have someone love them completely… Stay strong Girl…
Hey, I understand. It is hard when people are like that. You can do better than superficial.
Everyone has “those” moments…And, we’re all more likely to feel less desirable during “that time of month”…But, with that said…I think that you’re gorgeous!…And, even though it’s kind of hard to do at times…Especially if you’re not “feeling it”…You have to fake confidence!…Even if some guy is talking to “the skinny girl”…You walk back to your desk as if you know you’re the most beautiful woman at your job!…And, even if you don’t feel like it…You’ll look confident and secure in yourself…Confidence is very attractive…And, if you do it enough you’ll actually start feeling that way all the time!:)…You’re beautiful!…Don’t let anyone still your joy even if it was just a moment:)…Have A Great Weekend!..
~Jhonica~
U R BEAUTIFUL SO DONT LET HER GET TO YOU….YOU WALK BY THEM LIKE THE DIVA YOU ARE NO MATTER WHAT. DONT LET ANYONE BRING YOU DOWN. YOU HOLD YOUR HEAD UP AND BE PROUD….CAUSE I AM PROUD OF YOU. Huggs Ms Babe
I totally understand what you mean. And no matter how many people or how often someone tells us we are beautiful, we never seem to believe it. It’s like the only way we’ll ever really believe it ourselves is if we lose the weight. Trust me, I know. Story of my life. So then what do we do about it?
I know what you mean…but you are beautiful! You want someone who will love you for the most amazing person that you are. Chin up, girl!
We all know what you mean. That guy will find you and he will not be so shallow as to just look on the outside. You are a gorgeous girl, and you just keep up your positive upbeat attitude. I know that we can all say these things to you and you might not feel it yourself, but you will! HIS LOSS!
As I reminded on a regular basis….”your body size has NOTHING to do with your self worth” Your are great just the way you are! If others can’t see it, then those are not the people you need around you.
OMG totally get how you feel! I hate when I go out with friends for a girls night and at the end of the night I’m the only one who has NOT been hit on…Or worse they all get hit on by cute guys and I’m the one who gets the guy old enough to be my dad who is wearing all denim and likes to refer to himself as “Hambone” or something….(yeah that happened) - So yeah I’m totally with you there. One day soon - really soon!!!