I’m at Wit’s End!

I don’t know what to do anymore.  Honestly, don’t have a frickin clue what to do.  I used to be a pro at this weight loss game.  I have people on here message me, telling me what an inspiration I am.

It’s not true.  I’m nothing but a failure anymore.  I just can’t seem to get it right.

I step on the scale week after week, and see that # go up.  Despite all of my efforts at eating right, and exercising..I keep gaining.

What am I doing wrong?  I’m at a total loss.

I joined a team in hopes of finding the inspiration to get this done once and for all…and I’m doing nothing but bringing them down.

AAAAGGGGHHHHHH!!!

I’ve even gotten to the point where I’ve found myself so frustrated, that I’ve spent time online looking it up.

You know what I mean.

Surgery.

I don’t want to go that far.  I did this once.  I did this making healthy lifestyle changes via healthy eating and exercise.   And I was successful.  For Christ’s sake, I lost 100lbs!  Eating real food.  And NOT killing myself at the gym.  It was moderate at best.

And now…

I’m totally lost.

I have less than three months until this wedding.  I don’t even know if I’ll fit into the dress.  I’m scared as all hell.

I need a miracle…

9 Comments so far

  1. chrisie @ July 26th, 2008

    It might help you to go see a nutritionist…or Dr. Just to have everything checked out to make sure there isn’t a reason. I friend of mine found out she had a thyroid problem…and there was Brittany on Biggest Loser that estrogen issues. Our bodies are so complicated…sometimes getting some tests might help figure it out! Best to you and congratulations on the weight loss…and upcoming marriage! Blessings!

  2. chrisie @ July 26th, 2008

    oops…meant to also say that you are a beautiful woman…nice pic!

  3. 330to150 @ July 26th, 2008

    Thanks so much for the comments and suggestions. I might just have to look into seeing a nutritionist.
    **Clarification for my above wedding comments. I’m the maid of honor…not the bride! Phew…I’d be totally flipping out if it was ME getting married!**

  4. WonderWoman @ July 26th, 2008

    Yeah girl, sometimes we just really get off track. Sometimes I think we just get tired of all the weight loss stuff. You said you lost 100 pounds and that had to take some work. So maybe you are just dead tired right now of the whole thing. I know that happens to me. But refocus and get organized again. If it takes asking help from a nutritionist then do it. Take a look at your past blogs. Read them all. The good the bad and the ugly of your emotions. Where you came from and where you’ve been. Find inspiration in your own words. It’s helped me from time to time. Get back in the game girl! You don’t look like a quitter to me. Nope.

  5. jc @ July 26th, 2008

    Kelly you’re not a failure - you can’t fail if you’re still trying! Chrisie’s suggestion of getting checked out would be useful to check if there’s anything else going on. Maybe consider things like what kind of exercise are you doing - are you adding more muscle? Are you logging your food? I know you’ve done this before, and I know you know your stuff, but maybe getting back to the basics will reaffirm everything.

  6. iffer753 @ July 26th, 2008

    First of all congrats on losing 100lbs that is such a huge accomplishment. You should be so proud of yourself. I also agree with getting yourself checked out just to eliminate any health issues. If you are healthy maybe try and start to journal everything you eat and your physical activity. I know when I started to be honest with myself about exactly what I was putting in my mouth I was amazed. Don’t stress. Continue to be the new healthy you. Have faith. You will get through this.

  7. jensjourney @ July 26th, 2008

    First off you are not bringing the diamonds down!!!! We all have times where it is not working for us despite our best efforts…maybe you should go see your doctor and they can refer you to a nutritionist…might be worth the money even just for one visit. Start writting down what you eat as well you might be surprised at some of the items on your list.

  8. luvtlee @ July 26th, 2008

    Awwww sweetie…I know where you’ve been and it is such a terrible, awful place to be. I don’t have a miracle answer, as no one possibly could. Try starting fresh with a brand new honest assessment of where you’re at by writing down absolutely everything you eat and everything you do for exercise. Also…our bodies get used to what we give em’ and it might just be something simple like you need to change up your calorie intake and output. For instance, eat low calories for a few days in a row and then for a few days in a row eat a somewhat large amount…keep your body guessing. Same goes for any workouts that you may be doing. Change the routine up, surprise your body. Maybe go ahead and see a doctor/nutritionist. Just whatever you do, don’t give up and don’t beat yourself up mentally either. Hang in there!

  9. slimmersoon @ July 28th, 2008

    You should be so proud of your accomplishments, you have lost 100 pounds and you are an inspiration! We all have our ups and downs, you will find your way. I focused so hard on losing for so long it became just another source of stress. I stepped back a little, still eating less and trying to choose healthy but “no diet” and I finally started to lose. Sometimes a short break helps. Don’t let the stress of losing overwhelm you. Too much stress = too much cortisol which makes it even harder to lose. You are a smart, strong woman you will reach your goals, believe in yourself!

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