Starting Monday…a journey to the finish…

Yeah, about that zit.  It’s true.  I feel as if I’m about 14 years old.  Pubescent.  Greasy.  Awkward. 

 Ok, I guess other than the 14 years old part, the rest of that statement holds fairly true!  This thing on my face…it’s like a 3rd eyeball.  It has its own heartbeat.  If there are any “Family Guy” fans out there, it’s like Doug.  “Why don’t you go grab that grease and slather me up some friends!”  But I digress.

 So the non-smoking thing.  Well.  About that.  =)  I went to my doc Saturday morning and asked about the Chantix.  We discussed how much I smoke (generally 1/3rd to 1/2pack-day) and also discussed if I’d ever quit before.  He told me that it seems I have no problem quitting, I just have a problem not staying “quit.”  Yeah, I know that doesn’t make a whole lot of sense, but I understand what he was getting at.  Basically I have the willpower to do it myself, I’m just too damned lazy.

He hit the nail on the head.  Damnit!

So I made it through all of Saturday without a cigarette.  Sunday, different story.  The bf and I broke up (for like the 10th time since we’ve been together…damn…almost 7 1/2 years now…shit or get off the…well, you know!)  and then “made up” (we’re like children, I swear to god) three hours later.  Needless to say, I started fresh again today.  I must say…it’s Hells harder to fight the urge when I’m at work.  MY JOB is the reason it’s almost impossible to quit smoking.  MY JOB is the reason (or major contributing factor, anyhow) that I can’t lose weight.  MY JOB seems to be the root of all that is evil in the world, eh?  Alas…what’s a girl to do?

In weight loss news, I weighed in at 291 on Saturday…one lb over my 290 goal.  No biggee…I’ll just have to work a bit harder this week to meet my 288 goal.  I’ve taken to walking after work with a friend and her twin 10 month olds….so in addition to my morning workout and short lunch stroll, I would hope this should kick things up a notch…eh?

Well, as luck would have it, my escape from reality is over, and I must get back to work.  Hope everybody is having a fan*freakin*tastic (edited for content; you know what I wanted to insert) Monday afternoon and evening!